Frustrated from the sheer volume of stuff...
I have so much stuff going on .. actually to be honest compared to most people i probably have just normal volume of stuff.. but something about me makes me different, im very focused, i was told once when i was young that (unlike ADD as it was called way back then) It was possilbe that i had Hyper focus attention, Though please i have no idea what the words are for that, it was just a conversation in the early nineties, and it lay relatively forgotten till i started writing this particular post... but i had issues with hyper concentration, i would get onto a task and would remain "Driven" to achieve a goal or outcome ... and i would have a problem with more than a few things happening at one time,but now, im easily distracted by other interesting things, and find it difficult to stay on task... whats with that, ill tell you it adds to my overall frustration levels..
I know what it is that I want to do , but damn you all if i can actually get to doing it without having to run all over creation for one reason or another, and whats worse, is i feel some need to do that very thing, to add things to my list so that i will feel like a productive citizen..
The true tragedy is that i dont want to be a productive citizen, i could give a rats ass about society, community or whats beyond my immediate self interest ... does that make me a bad person? not that i would care about your opinion anyway :)
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
do you blog
Do you write a blog? if you do perhaps you have asked yourself this question after reading one of your posts... "Who the hell blogged this, and how did they get into my head?"
I was reading a post i made, and it reads like i had to go to the bathroom, what the hell? ... who would write like that?
Man, sometimes im ashamed of myself, and i reflect on my first posts, when i was asking some questions that now seem more relevant and more effective than when i wrote them. If i take the time to edit, polish and perfect a post, is it really me that's posting any more.. i have created a blog, in order to "muddle to myself" really just a reservoir of thoughts, a place to put things that have no business being anywhere else... so i will uphold that practice, however, what the hell? should i just delete posts like that ?
I only really post when i have something to say generally.. i guess you will just have to find a way through those kinds of posts if your going to get to the good stuff.
I was reading a post i made, and it reads like i had to go to the bathroom, what the hell? ... who would write like that?
Man, sometimes im ashamed of myself, and i reflect on my first posts, when i was asking some questions that now seem more relevant and more effective than when i wrote them. If i take the time to edit, polish and perfect a post, is it really me that's posting any more.. i have created a blog, in order to "muddle to myself" really just a reservoir of thoughts, a place to put things that have no business being anywhere else... so i will uphold that practice, however, what the hell? should i just delete posts like that ?
I only really post when i have something to say generally.. i guess you will just have to find a way through those kinds of posts if your going to get to the good stuff.
The great mysteries of the T4
Man i love numbers, i love working with them, and makin 'em do stuff, especially when there is money involved, im a natural accountant, not in skill mind you , but in nature. I have to actually work really hard on the discipline of doing books, and taxes and junk.. but the work is wonderful and rewarding to me...
I know, sick right? but its true, im doing reconciliations at work, and im putting in more work hours than i have in 3 months, cause i love the unabashed frolic in the numbers, good or bad, up or down it doesnt matter i love the work.
So today i was doing tax work, preparing for the tax year, T4's and our CRA submission, when a whole lot of questions started being asked,.. i determined that people (not Me) are actually intimidated and feel out of their depth when it comes to tax time... i guess thats how H&R and other tax firms are able to manage so well come this time of year, to successfully continue offering their services all year.. i mean a small percentage of tax back or 15$ isn't much to ask from a person, however when your dealing with 300 of them a day, i guess it adds up fast, I have been asked to do the taxes for the employees at the office, and I think i agreed, and now that im thinking about it, if i got 5% of their return.. i would make like 600-700$ in like a day, i could do it a single 8 hour shift (snags not withstanding) crazy...
So this year, im doing mine and my wifes taxes on a program that has enough room to do the other employees at work, and i can e-file them all ... and that will fun cause i wont have to pay for the program, i make an hourly wage AND im going to charge them for it, though im probably not going to actually charge for it .. cause im no good at that upfront negotiations. :)
anyway... back to my numbers and letters... I love my life.. and you should too
I know, sick right? but its true, im doing reconciliations at work, and im putting in more work hours than i have in 3 months, cause i love the unabashed frolic in the numbers, good or bad, up or down it doesnt matter i love the work.
So today i was doing tax work, preparing for the tax year, T4's and our CRA submission, when a whole lot of questions started being asked,.. i determined that people (not Me) are actually intimidated and feel out of their depth when it comes to tax time... i guess thats how H&R and other tax firms are able to manage so well come this time of year, to successfully continue offering their services all year.. i mean a small percentage of tax back or 15$ isn't much to ask from a person, however when your dealing with 300 of them a day, i guess it adds up fast, I have been asked to do the taxes for the employees at the office, and I think i agreed, and now that im thinking about it, if i got 5% of their return.. i would make like 600-700$ in like a day, i could do it a single 8 hour shift (snags not withstanding) crazy...
So this year, im doing mine and my wifes taxes on a program that has enough room to do the other employees at work, and i can e-file them all ... and that will fun cause i wont have to pay for the program, i make an hourly wage AND im going to charge them for it, though im probably not going to actually charge for it .. cause im no good at that upfront negotiations. :)
anyway... back to my numbers and letters... I love my life.. and you should too
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
The Plan...
I start my day, week month, year, life and afterlife with a plan.. im just one of those people i guess, if im not DOING something, im PLANNING something. Now i know that could be said of many people but for me this is actually a "Thing" that i do, i will wake up in the morning, and before i even know it, before my pants are on honestly, i have some plan forming of how the morning/day is going to go.
Ok you say, when i get out of bed i say "im gonna go bathroom, then eat some breakfast" and your thinking, thats a plan right? well not really, see the difference is that i attach priority and importance to things aswell, and because of my responsibility in life (so many) certain things have to be done in a certain order...
But that is all somantics, i had a plan for this blog, i had a plan for getting up this morning, and i have a plan for what to do when im done here, if i dont, i keep going till i do :)
But the point of this post is ... i form plans so fast that you could never guess that i had one, or what it is ... i don't pull out a pad and start jotting notes, i just form it, in the space of a few thoughts i have semi-cohesive plan, and damn you if you get in the way .
This is problem now, i form a plan before anyone else even gets out of bed, and they are tentative ill admit, but i defend them with attitude when someone goes to intercede with it. More than once i have gotten the "Fuck-its" when someone (i wont mention her name :) said "don't forget "insert minute detail i fogot here"" and i've replied with an exasperated "BAH" cause before my pants were even on, the plan had to change... This I have decided is definitely not a plus to my personalit matrix and is something i should consider changing ... ill make a plan to do that in the future ;)
Ok you say, when i get out of bed i say "im gonna go bathroom, then eat some breakfast" and your thinking, thats a plan right? well not really, see the difference is that i attach priority and importance to things aswell, and because of my responsibility in life (so many) certain things have to be done in a certain order...
But that is all somantics, i had a plan for this blog, i had a plan for getting up this morning, and i have a plan for what to do when im done here, if i dont, i keep going till i do :)
But the point of this post is ... i form plans so fast that you could never guess that i had one, or what it is ... i don't pull out a pad and start jotting notes, i just form it, in the space of a few thoughts i have semi-cohesive plan, and damn you if you get in the way .
This is problem now, i form a plan before anyone else even gets out of bed, and they are tentative ill admit, but i defend them with attitude when someone goes to intercede with it. More than once i have gotten the "Fuck-its" when someone (i wont mention her name :) said "don't forget "insert minute detail i fogot here"" and i've replied with an exasperated "BAH" cause before my pants were even on, the plan had to change... This I have decided is definitely not a plus to my personalit matrix and is something i should consider changing ... ill make a plan to do that in the future ;)
Monday, February 1, 2010
Meet Eric
I guess the wheel keeps on turning, nature takes care of own.
I would like to mention that today i met Eric, yep thats his name i decided, as i mentioned last week in a post, we lost Mckoy a raven that would come by every day and keep me company while i spent my hours pounding out words that did or didnt make sense to him. I was a little heart borken at the loss, but his partner Bruce swung by today with a NEW friend, and i thought i would take the time to say hello to him, his name is Eric.
Welcome Eric, please mind the dogs, and feel free to eat or take anything that i bothered to leave out in the yard, maybe it was for you.
Mind the power pole :)
~B
A cookie if you know where i got these guys' names from
I would like to mention that today i met Eric, yep thats his name i decided, as i mentioned last week in a post, we lost Mckoy a raven that would come by every day and keep me company while i spent my hours pounding out words that did or didnt make sense to him. I was a little heart borken at the loss, but his partner Bruce swung by today with a NEW friend, and i thought i would take the time to say hello to him, his name is Eric.
Welcome Eric, please mind the dogs, and feel free to eat or take anything that i bothered to leave out in the yard, maybe it was for you.
Mind the power pole :)
~B
A cookie if you know where i got these guys' names from
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